He is the way to LIFE..

Wow, some days I wish the next chapter of my life would begin. As a good Father He will wait patiently for us to see and realize His love for us. If Jesus is the way to the Father there is no fear in walking with Him.. My life has been one of aloneness even in my family never close to my mom or dad. What feels safe for me. This is the season of the false that I have believed being uprooted. What it looks like is not me being good and Him loving me. What I have know is works He is speaking identity outside of relationship wit Him we will not know Him or ourselves. How can I just except His love only by Faith. Wow this means all the ways I have lived to try to earn acceptance must be uprooted in my heart and replaced by an abiding love that will never reject me or make me earn it. He just loves us with an everlasting eternal love. When I experience His love in deeper levels my striving becomes rest in a love that far out weighs anything I could ever earn it just is. When we grow up without connection we seek it out in replace it with idols that keep us stuck bound to repeat the same cycles over and over. It is a heart issue what I believe about LOVE Himself. How can He just love me how do I sit with Him and let Him love me when all I have ever known is performance. How can I sit and just let Him love me when I have never had a father or anyone love me just for me. Why we believe we are unlovable we have first not excepted His love for us the foundation of all love is His unconditional love. Now I see Him rightly all in my heart will awaken to His great love that goes beyond the season or circumstances its eternal and never changes its constant. When I know Him I will grow in love for Him and others. He is our Bridegroom King and we long for Him. Nothing will ever replace that longing. Now I can sit even when it feels uncomfortable I will wait on Him to see me and I Him in me that and grow in the grace and knowledge of Him. I will be a Mary and not a Martha I will no longer run from intimacy for fear of rejection of not being good enough. The one thing is to sit as His washes my soul mind will and emotions from all that causes me to hide from the lover of my soul. I will put on LOVE even in the hard places HE loves me even when I fail He never gives up on me. He will overshadow me with His wings of mercy. Step into the new season with greater love that no man would lay His life down for a friend. He calls me  friend. Friend of the Bridegroom.. His eternal BRIDE as she awakens to His deeper love and transformation. He longs to remove all tat hinders love form healing her heart. Oh what a Father. Lets run together in a union that will never be broken. Take into the chambers of your great LOVE.. We will wait on your love and voice to speak we silence all others…

Your Bride awaits.